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2015 is surely coming in with a lion’s roar! I don’t know about you, but what a doozy of a year it’s already been for me!

I’m in the midst of making sense of what some painful miscommunications and the subsequent heartache can serve to teach me. Stories in the making, stories dissolving. While I’m presently engaged in needed self-nurturing, love, and protection, I’m conscious to be in this self-preservation mode without building defensive walls around my heart.

I know I’m not alone in this. Life has been challenging for a whole bunch of us, pushing us to edges, startling us awake yet again, and reminding us, sometimes painfully, to let go of the old and resolutely call in the new.

Sometimes it’s so painful to let go of the old ways of being, especially when life throws us those curve balls seemingly out of the blue. The ego does it’s by now ancient and outdated job of self-preservation by having us unconsciously fall back on habituated patterns of reactions. We take things personally or engage in an escalating game of offense and defense. (And how I loathe football!) It’s such a losing battle when we aren’t coming from our center, that place of pure love and peace.

I trust that the gift in our recent collective shadow material is the light of the divine that beckons us to expand beyond our smaller self, to shed that skin, and dispel the darkness. Time to make room for what our hearts most yearn for in life.

Isn’t it simply love and acceptance that we most deeply want? When we feel we are truly worthy of love and that we belong here, we can give up the tired-ass battles of the ego, and free ourselves, at long last, from that which is not love.

“How to get rid of ego as dictator and turn it into messenger and servant and scout, to be in your service, is the trick.”
Joseph Campbell

“To be deeply loved, means a willingness to cut yourself wide open, exposing your vulnerabilities… hopes, hurts, fears and flaws. Hiding behind the highlight reel of who you are, is the real you and that person is just as worthy of love. There is nothing more terrifying or fulfilling, than complete love, it’s worth the risk… reach for it.”
Jaeda DeWalt

I’m reaching for that complete love and I’m old and wise enough to know that the one place it can best be found is right here inside of me. The well is endless there. Time to refill it with self-love so I can share it with the world and make my dreams come true, come what may, come what may.

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